let it leave me like a long breath

also one of the things i've definitely been realizing is just... while i can certainly sit at a computer for eight hours (OR MORE) i absolutely do not have eight hours of enthusiastic problem-solving data-entry coding energy in me. maybe four at maximum. and that's fine! but it means after a certain point i really need to just, close the code tabs and do something else, b/c it is absolutely not long-term tenable to put in a few hours of useful work followed by another several hours of listlessly picking at things and feeling bad.